I wrote this for you but realize it will never do.
For your mind is stayed And your decision made.
The weight of life has left you heavy
The burden you carry will end up deadly.
The blinding light you will never see
Because this darkness between you and me.
The love I had has turned only to dismay.
There will never be a way to make you stay.
Or a path that leads to life
As long as you live out your vice.
The choice you made left me alone
For you would always rather get stoned.
This will lead to loathing and your sins will not be atoned.
That blood which was shed for your dark fate
Grows cold and turns to only hate.
Only sadness grows within
Because u will not ask forgiveness of your sins.
Your Father cries for your life
But you can only see your strife.
For life without His love is darkness indeed
And there can be no light without his seed.
This addiction is suicide
So you might as well drink cyanide.
Why prolong what is to come
A loss of life due to rum.
You are loved and greatly missed
Even now as you think you live.
But death is held in your hand
Every time u take a sip you can no longer withstand
The world has so much more waiting for you if only you would forget
This addiction that will leave u dead in a ditch.
I love you still and wish forever yours I’ll be
If only you would open your eyes to see.
Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who’s left alone
Ooh, the years burn
Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn
I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my choice
What’s a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
I send this smile over to you
—Disarm, Smashing Pumpkins
My best friend Jordan and I wrote this together. It is meant to show the ridiculous love triangle that addiction can cause. One being addicted to alcohol the other being addicted to the addict. I hope that ya’ll enjoy this and that it is insightful!
It was the spark that consumed us, once ignited it was the forest fire that burned our world to ash.
It calls to me like a master an angry slave that wants out.
He calls to me, beckoning me closer. Sweetly he whispers my name, his breath warm on my neck.
Trapped and chained but doesn’t know a way to escape.
Once you have kissed his beautiful lips there is no turning back.
Frustration leads to violence and violence leads to more chains.
He traps you, corners you, consuming your soul. Oh, but he tastes of honey
Slowly devouring all that you once were leaving nothing. There is only an emptiness that cannot be filled.
Freedom will never come because it doesn’t exist through my blood veins.
There is no choice, but the answer is always him.
I am forever defeated, so I might as well stay.
I choose him or I die
I choose it or I die.
This is how the game is destined to play.
He filled me with despair, screaming to take it away
To be set free from the bondage that corrupts our heart.
He stole my love all of me. Intoxicated by him as he is by it.
It had my undivided attention till it divided my life into a billion little pieces.
I’m Blinded by the darkness I’m always gonna be seeing.
Both reckless addicts.
I get drunk off him as he drinks down his sin.